By the end of the day...

and by the time they are through with me,
because I have been gifted by God.

Not in arrogance do I say this, but
I would be neglectful to my Lord should
I deny utilizing whatever HE has ordained me with
for the betterment of others in this life.

I don't wake up in the morning to say...
Ooh ooh, i wanna be a lawyer so i'm gonna mock some successful person's lifestyle.

or

Oh ooh, i wanna be an activist so i'm gonna pretend to suffer
so i can get attention,

I don't think nearing death and facing fear and pain inflicted by
other people who hate is something anyone mocks for the
sake of gathering on lookers.

Even cops have told me in the year 2007 ,

"there is no such thing as justice"

can you imagine? A cop telling someone this.
Oh please.
Isn't this field of work JUSTICE?

hmmm...

anywho, by the end of the day due to the gift that has been given
other's will make certain that any field i have the slightest inclination of power in, barriers
will be sure to get installed.

Okay instead of sugar coating...and trying to please others searching for the cutest words...

I tend to be outrageously influential and will have great power in any field I choose to work in.

Hell, I'm currently working for nothing and people are now jealous of my pain and agony.

Get real! You caused it! Deal with it!

Oh, as I began to say...

By the end of the day others involved will attempt, and attempt to make certain that every piece of public equipment is made unavailable to me by either citing me with Trespassing, suspending library accounts, making computers unavailable to me, trying to get a restraining order against me from my kids, then filing for termination of parentage and probably fabricating a false police report stating i committed suicide.


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Sorry, I still AIN'T depressed.

I'm amused.